Wednesday, May 09, 2007

i dont really know. but it's like there are cracks just waiting to fall open. wounds left untouched but still raw from the last battle. maybe we're not meant to be. but i dont and wont say any of this in front of you. i see your expressions, your honest and good intentions. and i dont have the heart to say do anything to hurt you. intentionally or otherwise.

maybe we should talk about it. maybe we should not. but something's got to be done. i cant leave. i dont know how to. and i dont want to. coz i know i cant survive. that's my weakness. knowing that you are the winner hands down.

you've got that endearing quality that makes everything feel okae. i've never felt this way before. everything seems to remind me of you. you're the pillar of strength, the tower of shelter away from everything else.

but at the same thing, you're my enemy, my opponent. everything i detest and more. you're too close for comfort. i feel suffocated, i feel raw. my cards laid down on the table for you to see. but sometimes, words cant describe how i feel and you cant understand it either. neither am i able to understand yours. there's that gap, the one we normally dont notice.

what should i do?

what we could have been, 1:24 pm.